It’s been a while, I have been experimenting with different forms of outlets and doing more writing and research on other topics rather than music and other creative things. Well to be fair, most things I do require creativity.
I got lost like a kid in a candy store and I took a break. I stopped doing all the little projects and archived most of it. Then I just focussed on learning, reading and thinking.
This reset was interesting in a few ways. It made me rethink why I do things, why I get distracted a lot and can’t seem to find the focus when results are not achieved.
Not that it’s a bad thing perse, I have fun doing all these little things. The only problem is that I don’t get to learn as much as I want on the few main interests that I have.
The other thing I learned was that I don’t take enough time, I have always tried to focus on the process, and not let the goals become too dominant. But a lot of the time these goals and the lack of results got in the way.
It might be because everything these days, and have been for decades is result driven. Everything is not aimed at results, not towards the learning process and making the best possible art, product or service. Which inevitably leads to less time for learning and expanding your skills.
While I was trying to make room for learning and not pay as much attention to the results and goals I have, it took over nonetheless. Leaving me frustrated and aiming for other projects which did produce results.
The time off has reset my focus and made it possible for me to let go of the output and result driven path a bit better. I am not there yet, but I am learning to manage my emotions better.